Ex-relationship problems, I need advice and your opinions!?

Okay. Well I broke up with my ex bf on April 30th. It was an amazing relationship that you would experience on in a lifetime. ';he was not my first';. secondly, i was madly in love with him. I broke up with him out of anger. it was for 3 hours, and i got upset and took it out on him and broke it off. i called back 3 hours later, and he wants nothing to do with me and is extremely upset. makes a ton of sense, that would upset me too for what I did. But here's the thing; I went up there with my mom to drop my nephew off, he lives an hour and a half a way from here. I get there, and i don't really want to talk to him it would just upset me so much, and he gets me out of the car and starts general conversation. I was cold and had no jacket, and he tells me ill warm you up and hugs me, then starts to kiss my cheek. i asked, what are you doing? he said ';I just missed you';. I texted him about it on the way home ,he said the same thing, and also he shouldn't have done it. I asked him about a possibility of an us? He said maybe later on down the road, but not right now he's not ready for a relationship. So I say alright, but not a good idea to kiss me like that if your not. He goes i know, blah blah the conversation goes down. Hes been extremely avoidy this whole break up ';of course';. So I get up on myspace, and he posts the song ';Halo'; by Beyonce. i message him later that night asking him if hes okay, he said no hes depressed and hes graduating, ';tomorrow'; from high school, were both the same age ';19'; and graduating this year. he has no one that can make it to his graduation and such. and i told him i am his friend still and that i will always be there for him. he said that made me tear a little and means a lot. i asked why? he goes i probably shouldn't for ';both of our well-beings';. I asked him what's wrong? He said go listen to that song on my page, it's for you. Then I sent him a text after, and asked, ';so im your angel huh';? He said ';you were';. He's very well aware i want to still be with him. So I message him and see how he's doing, he says hes doing good just tired and thinking about graduation tomorrow and such. I say cool, then asked what he ment by the song, cause I was trying to connect the whole ';you were my angel'; thing with the song and got nothing. He goes ';dont worry about it, I was just tripping yesterday';. I go what do you mean? ';exactly what I said , just don't worry about it.'; I told him it hurt, and he asked ';huh';? So im guessing he didnt realize what he said. he's kinda blonde at times , so im not sure what to decipher on all of this. i'm extremely confused, and I need your advice and possibly opinions on this! thanks!!Ex-relationship problems, I need advice and your opinions!?
first of all decide if you reallly want him in your life! and judging by the way you talked you do. so make it clear to him that you want him and your gonna do what ever it takes to get him back. be there for him non-stop, try to get him to meet up





I think youll get him back





hes trying to show you hes strong hes trying to get over you because you hurt him, but texting you back shows he still wants you.





dont give up! ur still in time