Advice on my relationship? what should i do?

i have been dating my boyfriend for four years, but within those four years we have broke up two times. the first time we broke up i was so heart broken and knew that this guy has been flirting with me and wouldnt leave me alone, he told me how i didnt deserve the bf i had because cheated on me. so after a month i started hanging out with him. alot. and i realized that i liked him alot, but i was still in love with my ex. the guy that i was seeing was fun and knew me so well, so fast. . . and just always gave me this amazing feeling. but all i knew was my ex, he was my first kiss, my only kiss, i lost my virginity to him. so when me and this guy kissed i was devastated. it hurt so bad that i could have such strong feelings for him. and same for me, he has never felt this way about any other girl all of his guy friends said so, he was head over heels it was so obvious. i just couldnt do it. so i called it off. and he was just not the same anymore. he would call me and tell me i didnt deserve my ex and he could treat me better. but me, being me, went back to my ex. but i still have very strong feelings towards him. so i stay away from him as much as possible. what is this whole situation? what advice do you have for me ? something.. i need answersAdvice on my relationship? what should i do?
You shouldn't deny what you heart tells you. I know when you lose your virginity to one guy, and than your not with him it can tear you apart and make you feel bad about yourself. But just because your boyfriend (you've been with for 4 years) got there before this guy you really like doesn't mean he can't be with you now, that is if you want him to be. And besides that the guy you were with for four years cheated on you...you do deserve better than that. Ask yourself what this guy wants that really likes you...does he want something truly meningful? Only you know, but I would definetly say just because you lost your virginity to this guy you've been with for four years doesn't mean you have to spend iternity with him...it's a part of life we have to deal with, and you will be truly happen when you do what your heart tells you to do!





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apparently your ex and you were not meant to be together. i know how you feel though ive been through the same thing. it turned out better with the second person (4 years now). trust me ;)
There is nothing to cry on.


You gave him everything and he left you.