Advice on my relationship?

My boyfriend and I have been dating for 2 and a half years.


I love him to death, and I know he loves me as well.


We are currently doing a long distance relationship while we are both in University, and so far it has gone ok, despite how hard it is. It's harder on me than him. He has a very strong personality and is very focused on what he's studying, etc...me on the other hand have a way harder time dealing with the seperation.





A month ago we had a pregnancy scare, and after we found out that I wasn't, he broke up with me. He then called me the next day saying he couldn't sleep all night, and he felt sick to his stomach, etc.


Because I know he loves me, and was just panicking about the prospect that there is always risk in sex, I took him back.





I just visited him a week ago, and we spent the week together, having a total blast.





I dont know why, but I just have this nagging fear feeling that won't go away. I'm back home now, and it's hard as it is...but I don't know what my problem is. I feel extremely insecure and I trust him with my life, but I think I am having problems trusting that he wont break up with me again...even though we're not having any problems right now.





Again, I KNOW he loves me. He really does.


I have brought this topic up, and we've talked about me going to school where he is, etc..but I am scared because he is still young and is not ready for marriage, etc. I am afraid that if I moved there, he'd feel cornered and we'd end up breaking up, or something like that.





I know you guys out there aren't all experts, and you don't know us, etc...but any advice would be appreciated.


I am even in tears right now because I feel like i'm at constant war with myself, but I don't understand why.





I keep telling myself ';You are looking out for yourself before anyone'; and ';you are a strong, independent women';, and ';he loves you so much'; (because I KNOW he does).





But something is bothering me anyways.Advice on my relationship?
if you're asking whether or not you should break up with him, b/c now you don't trust that he wont end things again-- then i have no idea... i thought about it for a while %26amp; i truly don't know what i would do. have you told him that you feel this way, b/c of what he did?





the reason why i thought i should respond, is that your situation is so similar to one i experienced. i have been in a long distance relationship, for two years. we too both go to different colleges (about a 3 1/2 hr drive in between). we too had a pregnancy scare-- but it turned out i wasn't. the only difference is, and i don't say this to be mean, my bf didn't break up with me. he reassured me everything would be ok, %26amp; he was there for me.





now, maybe your bf did just get scared that it could happen again or something-- %26amp; freaked out %26amp; was irrational. but, maybe he did want out- im not sure. but i definitely think you're justified in your feelings. if it happened to me, i too would be constantly worried that it would happen again.





another thing it could have been, as to why he broke up with you, is that he realized how much he loved you-- %26amp; that one day you two could have babies together %26amp; be a family- %26amp; perhaps he panicked b/c of that reality/commitment scare.





i hope this helps a little... i know you're in a difficult spot. continue to talk to him about all this. %26amp; remember-- you're not crazy for having these feelings. good luck.